GREY

我的天空今天有点灰，
我的心是个落叶的季节，
我不知道如何度过今夜，
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭。。。。。。

dis song very suit to represent my mood now
recently i dunu wat happen to myself
seems do everything also wrong
also bcum a mistake
wat i did juz never make ppl around happy

why im such a useless gal
wat use for me stay in dis world
wat is my good points?
i seem juz have bad points..

easy get angry,
easy jealous,
unbelievable,
no confidence,
no patient.....

wat else i still have?
sadness,
leave me alone..
bitterness,
leave me alone..
dun ever cum near by me!
i hate u so so much!

wat i wan?
wat i need?
do u ever know?
wat i thinking?

no even 1 person know who im reli are
u guys use to see the better me
but there was a devil me in my another side heart
she use to appear while i get afraid with,
while i sad, while i moody...
she take over my body,minds
controlled my actions
sumtime i reli thought that i have sum mental problems
was i have人格分裂症？
awhile happy,
awhile then mood changed 720 degree..

is better to have dis mental problems
at least while i get control by de devil me
im happy n release wat i controlled dis long time
n do watever i cant do
or scare to do
the next day,
i will return bec de real life me
like nothing happen

wat i scare with?
wat i worry with?
who knows?
nobody..
nobody will reli feels wat i feel now